This video diary was unplanned and somewhat just happened. In a split second I felt compelled to talk (and I was alone) so I chose to record myself. I didn’t have a plan of what to say or whether there would be a theme of any sort, I think sometimes you just (well, me as a writer does anyway) have this overwhelming need to get an idea or a passing thought down on paper. I love journalling and this is exactly that. It’s not exciting, its just real – it’s me talking candidly about my new diagnosis and how I’m coping with it. This video diary in the very moment of recording (Friday 29th July 2018 at 6.02pm), made me feel less alone and less inside my own head – it was extremely therapeutic.
Big ideas for blogs, for my book, or just in general come to me all the time, yet sometimes through the formality of writing and structuring, it can become too edited, too perfected. In this video blog… it’s just me processing one thought at a time. It’s real. It’s me.
I’ve had all kinds of trouble uploading this file (hence the poor quality) by trying to make it smaller etc… so next time, I think I may just ‘Inta Live’! I’ve never done that before (eeeek a bit scary – but so is cancer – so I reckon I could give it a go). I think as I approach my surgery, face my fears and try and remain somewhat calm in a distressing time in my life, this will be good for me to come back to when I need to find rational balance.
All we have is now… One life… Live it!