Well the time has come where I am saying, “One more sleep!” Tomorrow I embark on the first stage of kicking cancer to the curb for the second time. Around lunch time tomorrow, I will be undergoing a bilateral mastectomy, sentinel node biopsy and the first stage of reconstructive surgery.
I’ve recorded another video diary during the blissful afternoon I had at home (alone). I am so blessed that my family respected my need for space this afternoon to do what I need to do to get my mind ready for tomorrow. In saying that, I wasn’t even sure what it was I needed to do, but my goodness I’m so glad I had some down time, some quiet time to myself.
You can even tell I was relaxed during the recording, because when I watched it back, I was talking soooooo slowly – so clearly I was very zen! Yay!
My afternoon that followed the below video diary was incredible. I was able to cry, move slowly, pack my bag, listen to music, watch the latest episode of ‘Younger’ and just be and do whatever I wanted. I currently sit with a warm cup of Tumeric tea while I wait for everyone to arrive home. After I upload this, I just need to wrap some little pressies for both my children, so they get something special from me whilst I’m in hospital to let them know I love them and I’m thinking of them while I can’t be at home.
So here it is and I’m hoping post surgery I’ll be feeling up to my writing again (which is my true passion) – the video’s are just because I’m lazy at the moment and don’t have the mind space to sit and truly express how I feel. Happy Thursday and I’ll be back, minus two breasts…. BUT most importantly MINUS CANCER!!!!! Let’s do this!