All posts filed under: Video Diaries

Approaching Bilateral Mastectomy…

Hi again – I’m back with another video diary.  Take a look below, I know as a writer, I have mostly just blogged and written in a traditional sense… yet I’m finding a peaceful and therapeutic benefit in doing these video diaries.  Writing takes time and energy and for me, I’m either naturally drawn to it (that’s when I do my best work) or I’m not.  Lately, the thought of typing out my emotions is just not calling me.  Yet to film whatever comes to mind is seeming to prove a beneficial process for me (whether people watch or not). To update my readers if you’re not on Instagram.  I have been diagnosed with Breast Cancer again.  This diagnosis comes just shy of my four year anniversary which was brutal news to hear.  My previous blog post HERE is my first video diary where I begin to share what the experience is like second time around. Bec x   P.S. I’m having a lot of trouble uploading my videos and making them small enough to share …

Breast Cancer… AGAIN!

This video diary was unplanned and somewhat just happened.  In a split second I felt compelled to talk (and I was alone) so I chose to record myself.  I didn’t have a plan of what to say or whether there would be a theme of any sort, I think sometimes you just (well, me as a writer does anyway) have this overwhelming need to get an idea or a passing thought down on paper.  I love journalling and this is exactly that.  It’s not exciting, its just real – it’s me talking candidly about my new diagnosis and how I’m coping with it.  This video diary in the very moment of recording (Friday 29th July 2018 at 6.02pm), made me feel less alone and less inside my own head – it was extremely therapeutic.   Big ideas for blogs, for my book, or just in general come to me all the time, yet sometimes through the formality of writing and structuring, it can become too edited, too perfected.  In this video blog… it’s just me …

The Bad Days

I was reviewing journal entries when I came across one in particular… the pit of my stomach immediately dropped, I felt sick and reading the words took me back to a place where I wasn’t ‘good’. It’s an angry day, a poor me day and reading it back, pains me with sadness I’m going so well now, however, this is a dark reminder of the pain anyone endures in a battle against cancer. Today and the next two days touch on subjects that aren’t lollipops and rainbows.  Whilst my outlook on life is one to be excited about, it wasn’t always like that.  In terms of raising awareness, I owe it to fellow fighters, survivors and lifers to paint a picture of reality as well as the joys when you finally get out the other side. Please enjoy (maybe ‘enjoy’ is not the right word, maybe… please watch with an open mind and consider all people who have faced adversity of some sort).  The first of three in this series…

‘Breast’ Friends

I thought I would share the special bond I share with my friend Anna, my ‘breast’ friend.  I will introduce her in my video blog below, however, I just want to highlight a few things before you get watching. Anna has had breast cancer twice and a rare mucoepidermoid carcinoma … Surviving three primary cancers and about to embark on further surgery next week, I just wanted to say, she’s pretty much Superwoman. Anna was 35 years old when first diagnosed so we have a lot in common in terms of being young with children and facing all the challenges that come with Cancer. Anna showed me that there was life after cancer in some of my darkest moments, she was my strength and my hope – we now provide that to each other.  We understand it first hand and that’s why a ‘breast friend’ is truly an amazing friendship to have – I’m very grateful. Take a look below… at my second video blog I did with Anna.  Please grab a cuppa and watch …