All posts tagged: Life

Approaching Bilateral Mastectomy…

Hi again – I’m back with another video diary.  Take a look below, I know as a writer, I have mostly just blogged and written in a traditional sense… yet I’m finding a peaceful and therapeutic benefit in doing these video diaries.  Writing takes time and energy and for me, I’m either naturally drawn to it (that’s when I do my best work) or I’m not.  Lately, the thought of typing out my emotions is just not calling me.  Yet to film whatever comes to mind is seeming to prove a beneficial process for me (whether people watch or not). To update my readers if you’re not on Instagram.  I have been diagnosed with Breast Cancer again.  This diagnosis comes just shy of my four year anniversary which was brutal news to hear.  My previous blog post HERE is my first video diary where I begin to share what the experience is like second time around. Bec x   P.S. I’m having a lot of trouble uploading my videos and making them small enough to share …

Breast Cancer… AGAIN!

This video diary was unplanned and somewhat just happened.  In a split second I felt compelled to talk (and I was alone) so I chose to record myself.  I didn’t have a plan of what to say or whether there would be a theme of any sort, I think sometimes you just (well, me as a writer does anyway) have this overwhelming need to get an idea or a passing thought down on paper.  I love journalling and this is exactly that.  It’s not exciting, its just real – it’s me talking candidly about my new diagnosis and how I’m coping with it.  This video diary in the very moment of recording (Friday 29th July 2018 at 6.02pm), made me feel less alone and less inside my own head – it was extremely therapeutic.   Big ideas for blogs, for my book, or just in general come to me all the time, yet sometimes through the formality of writing and structuring, it can become too edited, too perfected.  In this video blog… it’s just me …

Eating Happiness

You know those moments when you feel so happy that you could burst? How do you fill your soul – so that pure joy radiates like a smile through your whole being? I experienced one of those soul-fulfilling moments yesterday and it reminded me how simply and easily I can fill my soul with a warm glow (if I allow it). That pure ecstatic feeling where you can simply smile at the most random of moments? Because your heart is full! Observing George (my Mr five) aka ‘Observing the magic’: The magic in his eyes, the innocence, the pure and uninterrupted joy, the energy and fulfilment without the need for anything more! The cheekiness, the candidness and the natural air of enjoyment… he has an effortless being of happiness, which radiates as a warm and loving glow all around him, which then lovingly extends to myself – I feel his magic! The laughter, THAT uninhibited laughter – you want to bottle as medicine! A medicine for when we ourselves want to exude that flamboyant zest …

Exist or Live?

“To live is the rarest thing in the world. Most people exist that is all” – Oscar Wilde I believe in trusting your instincts, breathing deeply enough to allow a sense of calm and living with absolute intention… intention for what? Intention, which reflects gratitude, courage and hunger… hunger to live in a way, which makes your heart sing. Living intently to hear and chase your desires and dreams; and having the courage to dip your toes into the ocean of ‘life for the taking’. What is life to you? Personally for me, it’s finding what makes me tick, being at peace with the realities of my own unique life and the challenges that I face and cannot always control. It’s the beauty of acceptance and the peace that follows when I surrender. It’s learning to say ‘yes’ and when to say ‘no’ and when to still my mind so I can hear what my heart is speaking. To do more than simply ‘exist’ requires extension and the removal of self-barriers. It’s a fresh set …

Are you spending too much time on your phone?

Do you get mesmerised by the little red dots that tell us how many notifications are on each of our social media platforms, or our emails? Are you drawn to them without even realising? Do you check your phone way more than necessary – simply because you have habitually become drawn to clearing notifications? I became unwell recently with a virus that snowballed to the point I ended up in hospital… really crook. I ended up with vestibular neuritis, a condition where I was suffering chronic nauseousness (plus incessant vomiting) and an imbalance caused by dizziness. I struggled to walk straight and I can only describe it as either morning sickness on steroids or the point you reach when you know you’ve had too many drinks (and you can’t go back) – yuck! Due to the dizziness, scrolling my phone made things worse, it made me want to throw up (more than I already was) and so I took some time off my phone. It also stressed me out if I saw work emails, because …

Packing Away the Silly Season

[Originally published in ENLIGHTEN – ISSUE NO. 2] You know when you realise enough is enough… when you’ve felt it for a long time, yet you seem to grant yourself permission to continue to defy what is important. You talk yourself around to avoid guilt, and you inevitably continue to sabotage yourself… Why? Because, “Heck, you deserve to have fun.” Right? [… well at least that’s what I’ve been telling myself… just one more drink, just one more piece of cheese]. When the ‘fun’, the ‘silly season’ and the ‘summer lovin’ indulgence flows well and truly into the New Year, you begin to feel sluggish. Let me tell you what I’m talkin’ about (my mum and I had some fun and made a poem)… ‘ tis the season To be jolly French champagne   And Christmas holly Chocolate and cocktails Celebrating with friends… No time for thoughts   As the BELLY DISTENDS Festivities continue… With delicious food, This keeps us all In a festive mood!   Perhaps it’s because I’ve not yet packed down my …

Introducing… ‘Enlighten’

The word ‘newsletter’ for me, resonates with the likes of school newsletters, and other compulsory platforms – basically, a newsletter doesn’t excite me.  They [newsletters] are informative of ‘must know’ dates and details in order to remain on top of things. The same can be said for ‘bulletins’. So when I was trying to name my ‘non’-newsletter, I decided that with my content and storytelling, I wanted to Enlighten my readers. Enlighten them by their own choice of whether they want to read my words [or not] – not because they might forget an important date like a pupil free day and accidentally send their child to school. Other than ‘Blog-tober’, where I blogged daily for the entire month [in order to raise awareness for young breast cancer], I have blogged quite sporadically. This is fine with me; I don’t have a huge following that expects to hear from me five times a week […yet]. For me though, I like consistency, yet life doesn’t always allow for that. By delivering a monthly e-magazine, I will be …